Messages

"I love YOU!" What a lovely message to send to myself. Today, I started a new practice: Meditate, create a piece of artwork, then write about it.

This morning, I listened to a guided meditation called Accessing Your Intuition. During the 14-minute session, a lot of tough questions were suggested—ones I found uncomfortable to answer at that moment. "Notice how you feel, in this very moment." "How do you feel physically? Mentally? Emotionally?" I felt heavy, thick, pissy, and grumpy. Maybe it's hard to admit that I'm human and sometimes in a bad mood. Being such an eternally optimistic person, it sucks to acknowledge that I have off days. I've also realized I don’t enjoy being asked, "How do you feel...?" To be honest, it feels intrusive. Why do you even ask?

The meditation guide went on to describe different ways intuition might communicate—through feelings, visuals, sounds, words, or experiences. "Take a moment now to ask your intuition anything..." As usual for me, within a few short minutes, the thick pissiness lifted just enough for a visual message to come through: I heart U. It felt sincere and simple, no strings attached. At least someone, something, loves me enough to help me let go of the funkiness, moodiness, and self-pity.
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That’s what meditation does for me—it offers a little lift and a reality check.