So I decided yesterday, the only sequential odd date in my lifetime that I would give up guilt... as in, I will no longer feel guilty. Of course this is a practice at first. I will need to notice then let it go for a while. Similar to my recent realization that I was rushing all the time for no reason. In addition to false urgency, I've given up wasted worry. Awareness is the cornerstone.
guilt [gilt] noun
1. the fact or state of having committed an offense, crime, violation, or wrong, especially
against moral or penal law; culpability:He admitted his guilt.
2. a feeling of responsibility or remorse for some offense, crime, wrong,etc., whether real
3.conduct involving the commission of such crimes, wrongs, etc.:to live a life of guilt.
I could write a book on guilt. I was raised with as a good Catholic girl. Considering the ideas and precepts now, looking back, I am completely amazed that people believe that stuff. Why?? Why would you want to believe in original sin or hell if not to control people? Why speak of freedom of choice, free will, in one breath then the next second talk about rules, if not followed, will create an eternal afterlife of extreme suffering? Yikes! Really?
No amount of talking, arguing or preaching will ever convince me that an all-powerful spirit, higher power, needs to punish people or take revenge... those are twisted human constraints and shortcomings. I also believe that a true God would not provide only one way to be successful on this journey i.e. only one religion... anyway, I digress. I guess that is what this forum is for. I guess that little rant lets you know my opinions of guilt and regret for that matter.
If every experience is created and presented to allow for the opportunity to remember and define ourselves, then regret or guilt, worry or fear are really empty wastes of emotion and thought energy. I guess you might have something to remember regarding these things, no judgement here. I am always speaking for myself only. I don't find value in guilt, regret, worry or fear at all, of any kind. Even what people call "good fear" is really not fear. My instinct or intuition warns me without emotion of possible hazardous situations and I simply turn away or avoid them without judgement or really much ado. I've actually come to recognize true intuition as having no emotional charge. If there is emotional energy, then it is most likely just my imagination gone wild, not true internal guidance.
So I am on the journey to explore possibility as my Fearless poem states... what will it feel like? I'm remembering!
I decided back in November 2015 to make my poetry available and journal online. I'm not exactly sure what "blogging" means but I am quite sure this is an online journal. Feel free to read on with an aire of open minded curiosity. At no time do I intend to offend, judge or pretend to know anything really, I'm just an observer and explorer, as we all are. Feel free to "boldly go" through my observations and perhaps it will spark or inspire. Comments are off because I don't want to be worried about political correctness when I'm writing. I'm not thinking about "you." I'm just writing because it feels "right". Feel free to enjoy or surf on.
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