![]() From my "Look Back" entry today... It got a lot of juices flowing. 1. feel like shit, hit bottom - it can be bouncy 2. perseverance, optimism, the miracle is around the corner 3. realization - shit, something't got to be done! 4. get inspired - or deeply depressed - or both 5. get real detailed, figure out what works for who you are (who's that?) 6. lather, rinse, repeat steps 1-5 aka time passes (quantity unknown) 7. final breakthrough, epiphany, decision, change, surrender 8. Thank God or whomever or whatever. You can now move on to the next thing and start over! I finally had a breakthrough around exercise. I wrote a couple of pages, just now all about it, which I accidentally deleted somehow. Time to cut my fucking fingernails short again! Fuck, Fuck, Fuck! When you say it three times it's suppose to help! Anyway. I wrote the summary above, which is probably better anyway, and I'm out of time so I'll explain them individually later! PS. I found a printed sheet of paper with this entry in a journal date range 3/13/16 to 10/12/16. The last entry: I'm having an odd moment of clarity - finally-?!? regarding exercise. I can be in optimal physical health - it is safe to express my love of exercise and feeling strong and powerful - there is nothing wrong with competition - with "winning" or possibly "losing" bottom line - it's SAFE & there is nothing wrong with BEING a powerful - strong - athletic - fit & fabulous person... It goes on and on about resistant voices and fear of failure and wasted effort. "My body scares me - the complexity - scares me shitless... I have no fear of dying - I fear living. Curious and apparently I had not had the breakthrough yet... still trudging that mountain but making progress! Comments are closed.
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